The illusion that the time being fucked lasts forever… "Just having sex? Just giving head? Is that all..." I'm bad at expressing myself. But that's fine. Clumsy but trying hard, like what you like, hate what you hate. People say that you like being bullied, but often it's just that you enjoy this kind of behavior and don't think you're actually being bullied. So I want to do deepthroating myself. I want to do it while getting intimate. I want to do it forever. I want exclusive deepthroating. That's the ideal. It's boring if it's just painful.
